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Early Decade Review

We’re almost at the ending of the first quarter of the year, and I thought I’d check in and reflect on my resolutions and status in the year.

So far, I have not succeeded in my painting. Of course, I haven’t expected to. I have the idea for it, but no sketches have succeeded in attempts to pursue this piece. It is a self-portrait of sorts, and that may be making me even more critical. To already be exposed is one thing, so it needs to be done right, I suppose. I’m thinking this may be the issue.

2010 is going to be a renaissance for me, in a way. I find that I need a rebirth in the way I create and the way I think, and I’ve taken complete advantage of a new decade appearing to do so. So far, I have found progress. I have completed two songs on my ukulele, and have two more to work on. I have kept my secret resolution of completing at least one book a month, and I even have a few in a queue to read in my spare time. I have, somehow, improved my work flow, and have found myself to become more productive.

Most importantly, I have found that I have pushed myself to learn and accept, as well as move forward. Some things I find pushing back towards, but there is always a struggle of sorts if you’re alive. I mean, what’s the point in living if you’re not learning or working on something? Whether it be yourself or a project that has nothing to do with your soul, humans need to work and to pursue. I’m grateful to be open to this idea of challenge.

I have a very large and very personal list of things I need to do. There is no deadline for many of them, but, like most clients do, I have set each list item to be completed “A.S.A.P.” That’s okay, though. I’m glad that I do not feed this added stress of rush, of impending doom, or of just falling apart. It’s a nice and new feeling for the girl more paranoid than most.

I am going to continue working on this song, and maybe recording it. I like recording these things so I can see what I need to fix. I’m my worst critic, and I am interested in listening to myself head-on.

How’s your year going so far?

March 1, 2010 at 12:04 am | Food for Thought | No comments